Christ in Life – Christ in Death
by: Jerry Liao
The passing away of my angel Eva came as a surprise to me. I knew the day she will join our Creator will happen but never did I expect it would come that way. The first two days of her wake, my mind was full of questions and disbelief. What happen? Did my God forsake me? How come my prayers were unanswered?
August 30, 2006 – It was around 10am. I was at the funeral sitting in one of the benches there facing my wife’s coffin. I was alone with my wife that morning. I started talking to my God. I said: “Lord, what went wrong? How come my prayers were unanswered? I prayed hard day and night asking only one thing – save my angel Eva, heal her totally and bring her back to normal. I gave and surrendered my life to you, committed to serve you in whatever way you want me to serve you. Begged you for mercy and grace. Why did you allow this to happen? Why take away the most important lady of my life?”
I was crying and cannot believe what had happened. I tried and did everything possible. Treatment, medicines, research and prayers. Where did I go wrong? What did I do wrong?
Believe me my friends, I received my God’s answer right there and then. In so many words, HE said – “My Son, Not only did I healed Eva, but I also healed you and your family. You asked and prayed for her physical healing – I gave Eva, you and your family spiritual healing. Physical healing is temporary, Spiritual healing is permanent and eternal.”
“You asked me why I took Eva from you? Yes I did, for her purpose in life has been accomplished. She has brought you back to me and that was all she wanted. And I am giving her – her reward – and that is to be with me in Paradise.”
“But didn’t you realize that while I took Eva away from you – I also gave you three Evas? You have your three daughters with you and Eva is inside the three of them.”
“I gave you five months to show Eva how much you love her, care for her and how much she means to you. All this time you thought you were treating her – did it ever occurred to you that she was actually the one treating you?”
“All your treatment failed – but look at your family now – I am now at the center of your family – and I am now residing inside you and your families heart.”
After hearing this, I prayed and thank the Lord for his Love, Mercy, Blessings, Wisdom and Grace. Believe me friends, our God is a true God and HE is a Living God. We may not understand HIS works, but it is not for us to understand nor question HIS plans. All we need to do is to believe and have faith in HIM and trust and love HIM with all our hearts. My friends, with God in your life – nothing shall be impossible. (Luke 1:37)
The message was so humbling. Who am I to question my God? And yet, HE still gave his answers to show HIS love, to comfort me and to assure me that HE was with us all along. HE never left us and HE heard our prayers and actually answered it – not our ways but HIS way – THE BEST WAY.
My angel Eva left with no goodbyes. Her last words were “I Love You Daddy”. There was never a time she was emotional nor dramatic. This has bugged me for awhile. But after careful thoughts, I realized my angel Eva left full of security, assurance and love in her heart. Most of us parents would want to depart this world only after seeing our children in a good situation – financially and emotionally. My angel Eva left only after she was certained that we her family was spiritually prepared. That we have our Lord and Savior in our lives.
Let me just share with you my friends two more messages I got from my God. The first was when I questioned my God why this thing had to happen to my Eva – Why Eva had the cancer? The Lord said to me: “When Eva had her cancer, you felt the need to save her. You gave her everything because you love her so dearly. You suddenly felt the love of a husband to a wife. To me, it was not Eva who has cancer but you because you don’t know me. And MY love for you is far more greater than the love you felt for your wife Eva”.
The other message was when I again questioned my God. I said, “Lord, I have been praying for months now, how come you have not healed my Eva”. My Lord answered “You just prayed and loved me for a couple of months and you have become impatient. I waited for you for 40 years and have accepted you still with open arms”.
How I will recover from this great lost is still a question. God brought me here for a reason. It is by his will I am in this difficult place, and in that fact I will rest. He will keep me here in his love, and give me grace to behave, as I should. He will make this trial a blessing, teaching me the lessons he intends for me to learn. In his good time he can bring me out again – how and when, only he knows and I will only trust and love him.
To all my readers, never let a day pass without assuring your love ones your love. Kiss them and hug them as often as possible. Tell them how much you love them. Accept the Lord as your Lord and Savior now. Put the Lord at the center of your family. Put your trust and faith in HIM. As Eva once told me: “Accept the Lord now – for after life, no amount of prayers can save us”. This is what my angel Eva lived for. She may had a short life – but it was a life lived fully. She loved her family and me with all her heart, and loved and served God till the very end. I love you my angel Eva and thank you for showing me the path to the real meaning of life.
“No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him” – but God has revealed it to us by his Spirit (1 Corinthians 2:9-10).
Praise be to GOD. To God Be the Glory.
